blog your heart {a challenge}

I saw this on one of my favorite blogs by Stephanie Howell. I love how honest Stephanie is and she is such an inspiration to me. She's a military wife, a mama to four beautiful girls, an awesome scrapbooker, and an all around beautiful person.

The idea behind blog your heart is simple. You blog your heart. The only "rule" is to be authentic. Such a simple idea, but I love it.

1. I love being a Mom, but it's honestly not what I thought it would be. I spent so much time researching and deciding all the things I was going to do as a mom. We are a month in and you know what? I don't think a single thing has worked out the way I had planned or thought it would. It's been really hard for me to surrender that control.

2. My parents came to visit and meet Olivia last week. It was so great having them here. I loved being around them and seeing them with Olivia. When they left, I cried off and on that weekend. I'm sure it was partly hormones, but it hurt my heart to see them go. It's so hard living away from family. Especially when there is a huge milestone in your life like having a baby.

3. I'm happy with how my body has bounced back from pregnancy and the c-section. I'm about 10 pounds from my pre-pregnancy weight, which is good. The thing is is I wasn't happy with my pre-pregnancy weight. I have my 6 week appointment next week and I can't wait to get the all clear to exercise (and take a long, hot bath).

4. Tom is such an awesome Dad. He's so much more confident in the parent role than I am. I'm constantly worried I'm going to mess it up BAD! I'm working on that though.

5. I've become addicted to Cherry Coke Zero to help me last through the day. Such a horrible habit, but I need the caffeine to stay awake. I'm thinking of picking up a coffee machine to switch over to a coffee addiction instead of a coke addiction.

I feel like a lot of times blogging, you only want to put out the parts that look good. This actually made my heart feel good.

Check out Stephanie's blog your heart post here.